difficult times to be superseded...an anxious knot settles in my stomach as i visualise the coming times...being positive from outside,but losing the battle within...touching the silver seams of my dreams seems a distant,almost remote possibility...tears don't help i know,but they're all i have in the sanctuary of my soul...the cry from within dying on my lips...as a friend,as a sister,as a soulmate,as a daughter,as a granddaughter,as an aunt-the choices that had to be made keeping their happiness in mind has left me alone amidst the ones i live for...someone has to pay the price,always...a deliberate choice i had made myself,but there's always a cinderella who makes you want to dream of a happily ever after...and those are the times when you start weighing stuff in your emotional balance...only to find your life skewed and heavily lopsided...